Busy Bee, Yes, thats me!

School, work, dentist, exercise, puppy shots, pack and unpack and pack some more
hangout with friends, go to Denver to enjoy a quiet weekend and shop for-yes-maternity clothes
finally. I used a rubberband yesterday and decided it was time for a new drobe'.
Haha I've never heard anyone use the word drobe'.

MMmMMM..
Sublime and Pepper for a morning start
Along with a nice walk around the park
and then working today.

At least I make money to sit there and do homework (:

"Life is Good"

Men

I'll never understand why at that moment looking into your stupid blue eyes and playing with your stupid brown hair, lying on your air mattress, listening to your record player-that I decided to let my guard down and let you in.

You're sweet talk
fake act
I'm a nice guy and I'll love you forever
crap

Really hurts me now
Thanks for that.

I love having a puppy. I walk almost 2 miles a day with this little guy and after 2 weeks of doing this and my yoga I feel amazing. Work is winding down and it's nice because I get to start school earlier. I didn't realize until today how much work these 6 classes are going to be. My mom offered to let me live at her house for free so I can finish school and work part time to save money. I'm super stoked on that. Budda gets a huge yard to play in and I get to wonder the beach once more. I think I'm even more excited to be around my real friends. People who seriously aren't fake. I mean don't get me wrong, I absolutely love CO and I've met a lot of amazing people but shit. I'm done wasting my time on spoiled, stuck up, like omg, lets be friends one day and not the next. I can't wait to be around my Bribay, and mooshka, and girls that know how to have fun without being drunk or constantly trying to get laid (= I guess it will be nice to get away from all the snow I've been around for 3 years.

Besides that, my belly is super itchy and I'm not supposed to scratch it. I'm 17 weeks and my next appointment is September 12th-I'M SO EXCITED! My boobs are enormous haha, and my hair grows insanely fast. I'm looking forward to being a mommy and think that staying busy and giving my life a REAL purpose will be fun. Don't get me wrong, I know it will hurt, be hard, I'll be tired, broke and looking back on the past. But I've had a great history.

Yay for the future.

Life

It's funny how my life changes daily
I guess I'll be going to Florida
to live with my mom, her pups, and hubby-
for free.

Then I can finish school
and find a place of my own
work on my tan (:

Guess that's not so bad

Just TIDbits of words running through my head

And there's something in the way the air smelt

sunset felt

that reminded me of once brighter days

when we went cruisin listenin to our favorite songs play wishing life was always that way

I pulled off into the grass and pretended for a moment it was still that day

We could write a song about how everyone says we're wrong about how this might be love.

But until then we'll sneak around life acting like the past never happened

and every moment without you feels like an eternity, my best friend.

Maybe in another town not so bound by the bad but one where we can start some good

and forget this life you know we could

Until then this love or poison will settle like a scar in my heart

Starting my own family

It's hard to believe I will have my own little family soon in the future. This is my little Budda. I went on a random shopping spree and got him because I guess subconciously I was ready to be a mamma. Well today I'm 15 weeks pregnant and last night I felt my baby kick for the first time. It was truely amazing (and kind of weird). I got my books in for school today and plan on spending the rest of my sunny days getting ahead of the game and preparing to be a student and a mommy.

I'm so excited (:

August 2011

When I think about August I think about reading as many of my books as I can before school starts and those are the only books I'm reading.

I think about taking more pictures while the grass is green and the Aspens have leaves on them.

I think about laying around on my deck, soaking up the sun and attemping a yoga session or two since I'm supposed to be staying in shape.

I think about how excited I am to watch my brother play sports this year and finally be a part of his life.

Yay yay yay can't wait for the next chapter.