So I stared school and I can already say I'll be way to busy. I'm going to set up some sort of workout/homework schedule so I don't just sit there studying and eating! I would however say I'm doing well so far because I don't even weigh 120lbs yet. My baby is kicking more and more everyday and my ribs feel like they are breaking inside! It's extremely weird. My job has slowed down so much it's silly-but that's exactly how Grand County works this time of year. I've only got two more weeks left! Instead of running to my moms in Florida I think I'll stick around with my grandparents a bit longer and finish my community service. I don't want to be a fugitive when I want to move back to CO in two years! I do love Colorado though and I'm seriously depressed inside I have to leave. I wish someone would just come up here and be my roommate and help me out :( oh well, I guess I could do one or two winters without snow.
Other then the basics I guess there's not much new to tell. I'm holding up rather well but being alone really sucks. I dream of two different people being two completely different people and neither of them have any intention of doing that. It sucks. I find myself loving one every single day more and more and then finding reasons to seriously punch him in the face. And the other-don't even get me started-he's making himself happy which is all that's important to him. I'm sure that will change in 5 months (sucks for him) Bah, men. I wish I could just turn my heart off and move on. I really do wonder how people do that. I bet though they aren't sitting around pregnant and emotional.
Again-BAH!
No more complaining. I'm going to work today to make some moneys! Maybe I'll see the bear that's been creeping around on grounds. Maybe I'll take some pictures and sit outside and breath in the Fall air with Winter slowly coming in. mmmmm smells good!
<3 <3 <3
Other then the basics I guess there's not much new to tell. I'm holding up rather well but being alone really sucks. I dream of two different people being two completely different people and neither of them have any intention of doing that. It sucks. I find myself loving one every single day more and more and then finding reasons to seriously punch him in the face. And the other-don't even get me started-he's making himself happy which is all that's important to him. I'm sure that will change in 5 months (sucks for him) Bah, men. I wish I could just turn my heart off and move on. I really do wonder how people do that. I bet though they aren't sitting around pregnant and emotional.
Again-BAH!
No more complaining. I'm going to work today to make some moneys! Maybe I'll see the bear that's been creeping around on grounds. Maybe I'll take some pictures and sit outside and breath in the Fall air with Winter slowly coming in. mmmmm smells good!
<3 <3 <3
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